Inner Darkness, Inner Light

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$30 USD

What is your soul’s purpose?

What challenges and trials do you face along your life path that might be sourced from karma, however you define karma?

What facets of your shadow self can be revealed by your birth chart?

How might we express that part of your inner self that is divine? What facet of Divinity do you inherit so that you might carry out missions that the Divine has set for you?

While I won’t be able to answer those questions fully, we can begin the search for the answers by starting with your birth chart and more specifically, your Chiron sign, the positioning of Lilith, and the positioning of Selena…

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For $30, you’re getting:

  • JPG file of your birth chart constructed under the whole signs system
  • PDF written reading report of the house and sign analysis for your Chiron, Lilith, and Selena, word count approx. 3,500 words (about 13 pages).

To order yours today, just e-mail me the following:

  • Name
  • Date of Birth
  • Time of Birth
  • Location of Birth
  • To avoid any potential faux pas with pronouns, please also provide the gender you identify as

Email contact:

benebellwen (at) gmail (dot) com

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The Inner Darkness Inner Light reading is spiritual in its dimension.

It addresses your inner darkness and your inner light.

This is not a reading about your love life, your career prospects, your personality, and none of it is predictive in nature. This is not about “what is going to happen.” This is about “why do certain things happen to you.”

I presume that your birth chart is a map of your personal unconscious, all that you are and the sum of your experiences, your nature, and your karma. I then presume your personal unconscious is connected to a greater collective unconscious, an expression of Divinity, and that you inherit at birth a piece of that Divinity. What piece? What part of you is Divine? Likewise, based on your own past, and presuming there are past lives, what is the darkness within you that you must shine that Divine light on?

For the answers to those specific questions, I believe three obscure points in your birth chart can reveal those insights– Chiron and two personal sensitive points, black moon Lilith and white moon Selena.

Altogether, house and sign analysis of these three points in your birth chart will offer a glimpse into your soul’s purpose, what inner shadows tend to cause rifts and tensions in your life, and what part of you emanates with pure divine energy.

In other words, a Chiron, Lilith, & Selena reading is spiritual in its point of view and framework. The focus is clear and niche: let’s ruminate on your personal spiritual journey. This astrology reading report is about your spirituality and how you are connected to Divinity. I also believe it’s an empowering supplement for your own personal shadow work and exploration of the parts within that need mending.

When you order a reading report, you will receive as a JPG image file your birth chart, constructed under whole signs, using SolarFire Gold. It will look like the following sample chart:

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Sample birth chart generated by SolarFire Gold.

I encourage you to explore every facet of your birth chart later, in your own time. For our reading purposes, we will focus on three specific glyphs in your chart–the one for Chiron (in the sample chart above, you’ll see it as a green symbol in House 11 under Taurus), black moon Lilith (in House 2, Leo), and white moon Selena (in House 6, Sagittarius).

The structure of the reading you will get will be organized in three sections—Chiron, Lilith, and Selena. For each section, I will provide a general overview of that astrological feature and its correspondences. Then I will identify the house and zodiac sign placement of that feature in your birth chart.

The reading will be a minimum of 3,500 words, delivered to you by e-mail attachment as a PDF digital document. The text is not computer or automatically generated by a preexisting program. The text is unique to my interpretive approach to the three astrological features, based entirely on my own studies, observations, and written in my own words. However, the text for the points in the twelve houses and in the twelve signs are pre-written by me, which I then apply and transfer to your reading report as applicable.

When I see notable angular aspects to your Chiron, Lilith, or Selena signs, I’ll make note of that, too. For the purposes of this short,  budget-friendly reading (it’s only $20…), I’ll only be observing conjunctions, trines, and oppositions to key points I’ve ascertained as most influential over your Chiron, Lilith, and Selena.

So what exactly would house and sign analysis of Chiron, Lilith, and Selena cover anyway?

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Chiron: Your Soul’s Purpose

Although Chiron is not unanimously considered a planet in astronomy (some say it is an asteroid, others a centaur), in astrology, for the purposes of analyzing your natal chart, it is referred to as a planetary body. Chiron, known in astronomy as 2060 Chiron, is a minor planet in our outer solar system that orbits between Saturn and Uranus. It was discovered in 1977, named after the centaur, half man and half horse, from Greek mythos.

In astrology, Chiron denotes our deepest wounds and the efforts we exert to heal those wounds. It shows the areas we try to over-compensate as a result of past hurt. However, it also shows how extraordinary the human will is: what once hurt us becomes our greatest strength.

Chiron reveals where our greatest healing power lies. It points the way to our soul purpose—how it is we will best contribute to the world at large, how we influence others, and the type of impact we will have, the legacy we can leave behind after we’re gone.

Your Chiron sign sheds light on global, environmental, cultural, and social influences that will bear relevance on what your weaknesses might be and how you might try to overcompensate for those weaknesses until ultimately, they become your strengths. The house your Chiron is domiciled in then gets more specific, about you as an individual, and how those influences play out for you.

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Black Moon Lilith: Your Inner Darkness

Per modern astrology, black moon Lilith is a sensitive point in a birth chart that represents a point along the elliptic or orbit of the moon around the earth. Black moon Lilith is the apogee of the moon’s elliptical orbit around Earth, where Earth is one of two foci. It is an abstract geometrical point along the moon’s orbit.

Take care not to confuse black moon Lilith with the asteroid Lilith (1181 Lilith). There is also a dark moon Lilith, which is a hypothetical second moon of the Earth. That hypothetical second moon, or dark moon Lilith, is believed to be a literal celestial body orbiting around earth. In contrast, black moon Lilith is only a sensitive point, and not a celestial body like the asteroid Lilith or hypothesized dark moon Lilith.

Interpreting black moon Lilith has risen in popularity among modern astrologers. I read black moon Lilith as aspects of the shadow self that bring on the negative karma, life challenges, and personal trials we experience. These aspects could be transgressions from a past life or dark aspects of our childhood that have a detrimental effect in our adulthood, often on a subconscious level. In a sense, black moon Lilith is about exploring the darkest nether regions of our personal psychology, the skeletons in your closet

Your Lilith sign will reveal what influences you’re being born into and the house it is domiciled in sheds light on how specifically it is going to affect you.

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White Moon Selena: Your Inner Light

The final point we will address in this reading is Selena. White moon Selena is a sensitive point in a birth chart based on a hypothetical orbit that forms a perfect circle around the earth. In terms of its nature, characteristics, and essence, white moon Selena is considered a polarity of black moon Lilith.

White moon Selena expresses pure light within you, that facet of the sentient you that is in part Divine. We are all connected to the Divine, to that God principle, and white moon Selena reveals the essence in you that is Divine, and how you specifically connect with the Divine. It is that part of you that is in resonance with the God principle. Where does your Inner Light shine the brightest and how can you best utilize that Light to fulfill the higher purpose you’re called upon to fulfill? That’s what we will explore with your white moon Selena.

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Guardian Spirits Since Birth

Your “Inner Darkness, Inner Light” reading also includes examination of the Hermetic Lot of Spirit in your birth chart. From the Lot of Spirit, we can see archetypes and profiles of guardian spirits that have accompanied your life journeying since birth and why they accompany you. What is the purpose these particular guardian spirits serve in your life? What greater spiritual mission are they tasked to help you accomplish this lifetime?

The Guardian Spirits section, or “Revealing Guardian Spirits through the Hermetic Lot of Spirit” covers an elemental guardian expressed per Judeo-Christian delineation of archangels and your directional guardian expressed per Chinese Taoism. Then, based on house and sign analysis of your Lot of Spirit, the reading will reveal the specific profiles of your spirit guides and why these particular spirit guides are with you.

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About Guardian Spirits (or Spirit Guides)

Socrates spoke of his spirit guide, “You have oft heard me speak of an oracle or sign which comes to me …. This sign I have had ever since I was a child. The sign is a voice which comes to me and always forbids me to do something which I am going to do, but never commands me to do anything.”

There is much talk these days, especially in the metaphysical communities, on spirit guides and how to connect with them. The concept of spirit guides, or guardian spirits, is found across every culture, continent, and religion, from archangels, guardian angels, celestial guardians, patron saints, and animal totems to tutelaries and daimons. A tutelary is a spirit guardian that watches over a particular class or group of individuals. A daimon or daemon, per ancient Greek mythology and Hellenistic philosophy, is a benevolent nature spirit or spirit guide that accompanies an individual from birth to death.

What transpires above in the heavens is mirrored below on earth. Heaven, Earth, and Man are interconnected. And in that interconnectivity, guardian spirits from Heaven are sent down to Earth to watch over Man. In East Asian spiritual cultures, from Chinese folk religion and Korean shamanism to the kami of Shintoism and devas of Hinduism, it is believed that every metaphysical practitioner, through the development of his or her craft, develops attunement or connection to particular spirit entities, celestial guardians, devas, bodhisattvas, etc.

We use the words “spirit,” “celestial,” “guide,” or “guardian” as a way for us to make sense of what we’re connecting to, like the way we talk about plants being happy or sad, or referring to our prized car as “she” and “baby.” What we’re sensing are high frequency electromagnetic radio waves, or signals each one of us are uniquely tuned to receive. The particular frequency of waves you’re attuned to receiving is probably different from the ones I’m attuned to receiving. We’re each like antennas for the reception of different wavelengths. Like how our eyes receive certain wavelengths, or our ears, so too do we receive transmissions of information through our sixth sense.

I believe the purpose for our reception of particular signals in the universe is because the interconnectivity enables the universe to continue its expansion, as it were, toward the ultimate fate of the universe. How we expand ourselves and eventually transcend contributes to the fate of the universe. Like the way our own bodies give signals to various parts within so the whole system will work in harmony toward unified goals of longevity, the sending and receiving of universe-to-self signals (what we perceive as divinatory messages or omens from guardian spirits) that, in our small ego-centered view seems to benefit us, actually benefits a whole unified system on a much greater scale than we realize or can even perceive. In so many nonsensical words, what I mean to say is this: connectivity with guardian spirits isn’t about helping us, though it is; it’s about how us helping us can serve a greater good. That’s why we receive these signals from the universe.

And each one of us is built to be a slightly different antenna, though we might be able to form categories. Like astrology. We’re each unique and the very unique pattern of signs and astrological features in a natal chart can shed light on who we are, as a unique individual, but deconstructed down to its parts, a whole lot of people are Virgos, a whole lot of people have Mercury in Aries, or an opposition between their midheaven sign and Pluto, or even a grand trine in their charts. And all those who have Mercury in Aries, for example, will share certain underlying points of commonality, though how it manifests in each individual will be unique because of the collective series of astrological features. On that theory, I’m using astrology to determine the characterization and essential qualities of the high frequency electromagnetic radio waves you’re most attuned to as a personal antenna or, to use easy to understand New Age terms, use natal astrology to figure out who your spirit guides are.

There are shared essential traits and patterns in the universe, and we’ll borrow terminology from one subject area to describe a shared pattern in a different subject area. In other words, figurative language. We might refer to someone as catty, referencing a cat, the animal, because of commonalities we are observing anecdotally, and so that’s how I understand the operation of something like animal totems. We’re sensing a particular energy, and based on our common experiences, that energy comes across as, say, tiger-like, or fox-like. Most notably, energies are observed by us and described through emotions and aspirations, like a deity for love, or a deity for wealth. We experience emotions about particular places, too, and that’s how we get the personification of regional deities. Those who were once human who have truly dedicated their lives to service of a greater good– toward expanding the universe– ascend, because the energetic frequency or mark of what they’ve contributed matches that of the universe, becoming one with that universe and now becoming an energetic frequency emitted out to continue the expansion. These we often refer to as ascended masters, devas, or bodhisattvas. These manifestations we refer to as our particular spirit guides– the energetic frequency we happen to be receptive to because being receptive to it not only benefits us in some direct way, but will in turn help us serve a greater good that benefits the universe.

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This is not a birth chart reading.

I mean, okay, yes it is, sorta, in the literal sense that I am reading your birth chart to put together this report. So yeah, it’s literally a birth chart reading BUT it is not a birth chart reading. Let me explain.

If you came to me asking for a “birth chart reading,” what I would do for you as an astrologer is scan the entire chart and assess all the key or notable facets of the chart as they relate to your personality, your life path, and various parts of your life like career and love. I might point out what’s unique about your chart, and therefore unique about you. I would definitely tell you about your sun, moon, and rising signs. I may cover the positioning of all the major planets from our solar system and what that might mean about you and your life. That’s what I call a “birth chart reading.”

This is not a “birth chart reading.”

Instead, I construct your birth chart and then zoom in on only and exactly three features in your chart– one feature is a dwarf planet (or asteroid, depending on who you talk to), and two aren’t even objects. They’re certain angles or mathematically calculated points in the heavens based on your date of birth, time of birth, and also location (geographical coordinates) of birth. It’s a geocentric model (meaning it’s from the perspective of where you were born looking up at the heavens at the moment of your birth).

This will not be light reading.

Of course I want to think of myself as compassionate and empathetic. For sure–and I really maintain this–these readings are not judgey. However, I do want to emphasize that Chiron unearths deep wounds and how embracing those wounds lead you to your greatest personal strengths and how it is you were intended to serve a greater good, which greater good you’re intended to serve. Lilith expresses the part of you that’s dark, that’s not so shiny and pretty, that’s not so graceful, and the nature of mara someone like you, per your birth chart, needs to face to transcend that darkness and find inner light. By their definition none of what I just mentioned could be “light reading material.” Selena, though, is comparatively lighter, but of same gravity and weight as what is discussed through Chiron and Lilith. Selena reveals that part of you that is pure divinity, that you inherit from the Divine so that you can utilize that inheritance in positive ways here on earth.

Limitations in Scope

Reading a natal chart for an astrologer can be a bit like deep-diving down a rabbit hole. Once you start, there’s so much to unpack. For instance, without looking at any other facet of your chart, only concentrating on Chiron, Lilith, and Selena, we should also be looking at all the angular aspects between these points and other celestial bodies in your chart. Not just celestial bodies like the traditional sacred seven or the modern planets we observe, but also the Hermetic Lots (Arabic Parts), the midheaven, imum coeli, ascendant, co-ascendant, polar ascendant, it just goes on and on.

We should look at the unique lattice created by the pattern of Chiron, Lilith, and Selena in your chart, but alas, for a $30 e-mail reading, we won’t. It would be impractical to cover the full breadth and scope of what you should cover when examining your Chiron, Lilith, and Selena. So for our $30 reading purposes, we are focusing on house and sign placement only.

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For $30, you’re getting:

  • JPG file of your birth chart constructed under the whole signs system
  • PDF written reading report of the house and sign analysis for your Chiron, Lilith, and Selena, word count approx. 3,500 words (about 13 pages).

To order yours today, just e-mail me the following:

  • Name
  • Date of Birth
  • Time of Birth
  • Location of Birth
  • To avoid any potential faux pas with pronouns, please also provide the gender you identify as

Email contact:

benebellwen (at) gmail (dot) com

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